When we came to live in Tena with my son in August 2012 it was very hard
for him to accept.
Before that we lived in Quito and I only visited Tena and traveled here
and back, trying to be as efficient as possible in work and miss as little time
as possible with my son.
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Matthew 6:14-15
For if you forgive men when they
sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you
do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
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For me, it was time of guilt and bad conscience for one side and respite
from the tensions in my married for another.
Finally, my husband's infidelity came too obvious and I was relieved to
be able to leave him and give our marriage for a failure.
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Darkness cannot drive out
darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do
that.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
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For my son, this meant leaving his father, his school, his friends, his
cousins and other extended family, in other words, everything he was used,
everything he was familiar with.
It was hard time for us both.
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Isaiah
43:25-26
"I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own
sake, and remembers your sins no more. Review the past for me, let
us argue the matter together; state the case for your innocence.
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My son was afraid of not getting new friends, he suffered in the new
school where I put him, and finally, in the middle of the semester, I had to
change him to another school.
The first house where we lived was filled with vermin, giant
cockroaches, wasps, black tarantulas, possums, and various other local animal
forms.
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I
can forgive, but I cannot forget, is only another way of saying, I will not
forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a cancelled note - torn in two, and
burned up, so that it never can be shown against one.
Henry Ward Beecher |
Besides the house had been a bar, which I knew, and a bordello, which I
didn't know.
And the former clients would come at night knocking and shouting,
demanding for attention.
Finally, we found a new home, a beautiful house in a very nice and quiet
neighborhood.
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Numbers 14:19-21
In accordance with your great love,
forgive the sin of these people, just as you have pardoned them from
the time they left Egypt until now." The LORD replied, "I have forgiven
them, as you asked. Nevertheless, as surely as I live and as surely as
the glory of the LORD fills the whole earth,
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And my son started to enjoy going to school, in his new school.
He started to get new friends and enjoy his life, cycling to see them,
inviting them to our home to play with the computer.
But he still had nightmares.
He still was afraid to sleep alone I his room.
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Forgiveness is the remission of sins. For it is by this that what has
been lost, and was found, is saved from being lost again.
Saint Augustine
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Most nights he would sleep next to me.
I told him that he wouldn't sleep alone, his cat liked to go to bed with
him.
But would leave at night, and he would wake up at night, in the
darkness, alone.
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My son with his, please, can we take him back home with us, face.
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Our snautzer didn't want to sleep with him but would jump out of the bed
and run to sleep under mine.
Finally, last July his friend told him that their chihuahua was going to
have puppies.
I told my son he could have one, but it would be his Christmas present,
ahead of time, and there would be no other gifts.
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Micah
7:18-19
Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of
the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to
show mercy. You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our
sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.
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He told me that he wouldn't mind because he wanted the dog; it would be
his friend and would sleep the nights with him.
In September he got his friend, a little girl chihuahua puppy.
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Without
forgiveness, there's no future.
Desmond Tutu |
We called her Bailarina because she likes to stand in her back paws when
she is excited and it looks like she is dancing around.
It has been another adventure.
The puppy sleeps with Mikael, he finally has his loyal loving friend.
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Mark
11:25
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive
him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. "
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But puppies can't sleep all the night without waking up to go to
bathroom.
So we have had a lot of accidents.
But she is learning and sleeping next to my son.
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Forgiveness
is the giving, and so the receiving, of life.
George MacDonald |
Who now can rest easily his nights on his own bed, in his own room.
And I can only sigh, how fast do they grow.
How at once I want to keep him close and make him stand on his own.
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| My son with his Bailarina. |
