When we came to live in Tena with my son in August 2012 it was very hard for him to accept.
Before that we lived in Quito and I only visited Tena and traveled here and back, trying to be as efficient as possible in work and miss as little time as possible with my son.
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
For me, it was time of guilt and bad conscience for one side and respite from the tensions in my married for another.
Finally, my husband's infidelity came too obvious and I was relieved to be able to leave him and give our marriage for a failure.
Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
For my son, this meant leaving his father, his school, his friends, his cousins and other extended family, in other words, everything he was used, everything he was familiar with.
It was hard time for us both.
"I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more. Review the past for me, let us argue the matter together; state the case for your innocence.
My son was afraid of not getting new friends, he suffered in the new school where I put him, and finally, in the middle of the semester, I had to change him to another school.
The first house where we lived was filled with vermin, giant cockroaches, wasps, black tarantulas, possums, and various other local animal forms.
can forgive, but I cannot forget, is only another way of saying, I will not
forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a cancelled note - torn in two, and
burned up, so that it never can be shown against one.|
Henry Ward Beecher
Besides the house had been a bar, which I knew, and a bordello, which I didn't know.
And the former clients would come at night knocking and shouting, demanding for attention.
Finally, we found a new home, a beautiful house in a very nice and quiet neighborhood.
And my son started to enjoy going to school, in his new school.
He started to get new friends and enjoy his life, cycling to see them, inviting them to our home to play with the computer.
But he still had nightmares.
He still was afraid to sleep alone I his room.
Forgiveness is the remission of sins. For it is by this that what has been lost, and was found, is saved from being lost again.
Most nights he would sleep next to me.
I told him that he wouldn't sleep alone, his cat liked to go to bed with him.
But would leave at night, and he would wake up at night, in the darkness, alone.
Our snautzer didn't want to sleep with him but would jump out of the bed and run to sleep under mine.
Finally, last July his friend told him that their chihuahua was going to have puppies.
I told my son he could have one, but it would be his Christmas present, ahead of time, and there would be no other gifts.
He told me that he wouldn't mind because he wanted the dog; it would be his friend and would sleep the nights with him.
In September he got his friend, a little girl chihuahua puppy.
We called her Bailarina because she likes to stand in her back paws when she is excited and it looks like she is dancing around.
It has been another adventure.
The puppy sleeps with Mikael, he finally has his loyal loving friend.
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. "
But puppies can't sleep all the night without waking up to go to bathroom.
So we have had a lot of accidents.
But she is learning and sleeping next to my son.
Who now can rest easily his nights on his own bed, in his own room.
And I can only sigh, how fast do they grow.